Dreams are always impossible and unpredictable. You know that what you dream, either when you’re sleeping or awake, is very much unlikely to happen. Then why do we keep dreaming? My imagination sometimes runs wild; I picture several types of scenarios. I imagine I’m thinner and richer. I picture that guy proposing, a life in which I wouldn’t have to work to get money, or one in which I’m a professional dancer/actress.

No, that’s not all I do the entire day, that’s not what my life revolves around, I’m not a shallow person, I’m only human. That’s what makes us so special, so different from other animals. We can dream, we can imagine a whole different world, write it down on a piece of paper and make a movie, a song, a play or even a drawing. That’s where art comes from: a simple dream. Beautiful things come from a simple dream. Silly and childish? Yes, but also beautiful and brilliant.

And I ask myself why we hear  a girl , when giving  advice say,  “Argh, he’s a dreamer, you have no future with him, just dump him right now”. Of course when it comes to making a big decision, like, who you’re going to marry, or what career path to take, people usually choose the safest path, the most likely to assure money by the end of the month.

I am very  proud to say that I am a dreamer, that I have no plan whatsoever, and that I have no idea what I’m going to do with my life. And when my dad calls me to say: “Mariana, you’re 23 years old!! You have to decide, you have to start living your  life!” I gladly respond back: “Exactly dad! I’m 23 years old, I’m only 23, and I am living my life, look! This is me living my life!”

For 23 years I was afraid to admit, I was afraid that people would say I was crazy (more than they already do). But, I’m not afraid anymore. And I will never let anyone let me down by saying I’m just a silly dreamer, that I’m just a girl. Yes, I am a dreamer, and I am, in fact, just a girl. And what is wrong with that? Who’s to say that being a grown up, full of plans and that exact amount of money by the end of the month is better?

I’m not saying that that is a bad way of living one’s life; I’m just saying that life is not for me. I want more, I want my dream on a piece of paper!

Mariana Shayeb, Black, Uxbridge Road

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